Move On

2011 will come to an end in 7 hour's time. People always say time flies and I find that partially true. I don't think I am going to end my 2011 with a bang but only with hope.

Suddenly, or perhaps it's been with me for a while now, that I would want to move on. It's the hardest thing in the world. Damn, people move on evryday and why would it be so hard when everybody is doing it? or it's just me living with a stubborn heart. Speaking of which, I remember one of the episodes of Grey's, Lil Grey is the one whose heart lives in the vagina. Hah. How brilliantly expressed. *random* ;p

Layers of lies and layers of truths. collide and mash. I am afraid...of losing evrything that I hold dear to. Without realizing that maybe I never had it from the beginning. I am to make one of the biggest decisions in my life. hanging by a thread thing. I guess I am nervous and in a state of pre-devastation and that's why I am blogging now. You are what you blog, remember? I don't even have a clue what to say and how and where and...sigh...

Head is spinning for the moment. Maybe my brain is again doing what he is best in which is to complicate things or maybe i am just sheer tired. Oh, I think it's the decision that I am making soon. Oh, how every fiber of my body is reacting to the restlessness now. I am with no boldness in this.

I feel like I can get mad again. with someone. It's only fair to me. What isn't fair enough is..I can only get mad. over and over. endless and pointless.

But, 2012, Hello, here I am. metamorphosis.